God taught me a lesson today about being a vessel. A few friends and I decided to join the school talent show a while back, an idea that was incredibly daunting, to say the least, especially because of my reserved personality. However, I resolved that I would face my fears, not for myself, but to share God’s goodness with the entire school; that was the goal.
Making It Happen
We picked a Christian song about God’s unrelenting nature, about how much He longed for us. I don’t know if it touched anyone’s heart, but we prayed before we went on stage that God would use it to bless the students in our school and that He would open their eyes (and in this case, ears) to his unfailing love. We also prayed for voices like angels – we decided that if we were to sing about God’s love, we might as well sound wonderful while doing so.
The After Effects
I may never know if it touched anyone’s heart, but maybe that’s not the point. I spent hours afterwards trying to recall if I had seen anyone close to tears, any soul that was moved by our performance; I expected a perceivable confirmation of the work God was doing through us. I felt that if I didn’t see it, it must not have happened.
It was discouraging, when I didn’t perceive a change; it was disheartening when the entire audience didn’t give their lives to God immediately. To be honest, that wasn’t exactly how I envisioned it. I had hoped something would happen.
Being a vessel doesn’t mean you’ll ever know how you’ve changed someone else’s life; sometimes you won’t ever see the fruits of the labor, you just have to trust that God will work through you, regardless of how it seems.
As humans, we all strive to be perfect, and our Christian walks are no exception. However, God already knows our limits. Our lives will be a light to some, but not to others; the entire world will not be saved. That is not to say that it is impossible for God to save each and every life on our planet, and to use you or I to do it.
So although we may not understand why he hasn’t saved all our friends and family, and why people don’t react the way we think they should when we share the gospel, we can rest assured that He will have His way, and that His way is best, regardless of whether we understand or not.
To be honest, no matter how hard I try, how loud I sing, and how many people I pray for, there will always be some that fall through the cracks, and sometimes, this is discouraging. The bible says that God delights more in one lost soul that returns to Him, than all the souls that have already been saved. The bottom line is, I will never know the full extent to which I touch other people’s lives through God, and I may never get to everyone, but being available to God really is important, regardless of the amount of souls saved.